Month: September 2005

a tribute to a manwhose thought is beyond all the borders you rock my worldwith eyes staring at the mindand words proclaiming truth and justice mysterium fascinosum…expression of madnesssymbol of freedomspirit of liberalismreaching for socialism gifted with dozen playful spiriteyes of an eaglefull with symbols of beyond-life face the worldtough even when there is storm […]

desire for the beautythe scent of a woman playing with the hairraising her smilealways try to protect herthen emerging to her heart love is an universal themeas the universe is in your mind

the toughest, the hardest enemy to defeat is… the fear…. that is… MYSELF I got a call from a wise heart, telling me to head back to nature that can fill my life with abundant experience… there is NO REGRETrelationship with the air, the trees, the sun, the rain, the soilthe life of Motherland guaranteed […]

fire that holeburn the mindnuts wrapped in fearswrapped in sadnessattack oneself with a compassion hopedesiring for love and caring never thought of the bulletsmight head to no-where-else but …tearing apart what had been there sorrytotally out of the framebreaking the crystal glasspricking smile

To whom I think I might be attracted to Too farToo goneToo blurToo damned fine Reaching for the not possible flowerBlossom and rotten at the same, exact moment Let it diein the summer and spring Never bein the winter and fall Hail to the sunThe lost kingdom in the soulWill I try once more? The […]

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aku sudah lama tak berkata-katamungkin aku lupa aku punya kata-kataataukan memang kata-kata tak berarti? aku bungkamaku marahaku berontakaku tertahan dalam geram aku harus kembali ke dalam dirisebuah level mendekap dalam fase janinhingga jadi bayi sergap hidup dengan tawa ceriajangan sampai skeptis apalagi apatis aku tidurrindu dekapan iburindu belaian langitrindu hembusan nafas adamadam yang tak pernah […]

aku bernyanyi. suara sember. free to express myself. aku nyabo. bisik-bisik. lirik-lirik. fuckin’ hell out of your speechless mind. aku ngerock. biar tampang melankolis, hati cadas. gone wild! hujan berhenti. langit tetap biru, tak terkalahkan. aku ngantuk tapi tak mau tidur. aku masih ingin berlari telanjang di pantai. bersetubuh dengan angin laut dan debur ombak. […]

nikmatnya jadi orang-orang gila. lapar tak takut. mampus tak takut. orang berlalu saja. hidup sesuka hati. merengkuh alam tanpa rikuh. heaven not be in eden but in yourself.

kenangan kembalitapi harus pergiterlalu harus terpendamdan tak ingin tenggelam tapi aku tak ingin ia pergiwalau tak bisa tampakaku bisa sembunyikandi balik urat-urat wajah aku menulisaku mengingataku kembaliaku bermimpi mimpi yang tak kunjung usai(aku memang tak ingin) kadang ada satu dua tawarkan mawar merahada yang kuinjakada yang kutinggal busuk aku lelah(sesungguhnya tidak?) kamu terlalu manisterlalu membuaiterlalu… […]